Sigh, the past few daays totally sucked. Its like all my emotional trauma suddenly caught up and i'm so annoyed with so many things, and like there were lots of depressing things too ><. And I kinda realised that in our lives, some things are really really really hard to endure and bear. And you just feel like you wanna explode and kill everyone next to you, or like you feel like you are a supergiganticblackhole which you just shovel all your problems, feelings and stuff into, so you dont have to deal with it. Budden one day it just can't fit anymore and everything just spews out like a clogged toilet.

Work is kinda going on quite slowly too, since I'm too preoccupied emoing and doing other things to distract me from emoing, which of course eats up a lot of time. Also, I realised that being jealous about what other people seem to have just totally kills you inside, since you know you won't ever get something like that and like reality is just worse than you can imagine. So like you end up hoping for what you won't get....and you feel crappy cuz of that. Ahh wells. Lifes like that...