You never really appreciate something till its gone.
And, as usual, we all probably have heard this before, time and time again, over and over again. But, as we all know, just having the knowledge of something is useless unless we really start to actively learn how to apply it. In all aspects of our life. And really learn to let it be such a close part of us such that no matter what, under any circumstances, we can apply it subconciously. But how many of us really do that ehh?
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Random Thoughts
Hmm, was just thinking how cool it is that some people seem to be able to blog about things that are actually remotely interesting to read and think about, while others are just superficially blogging about things like fashion, what they bought and so on, and its a great pasttime wondering whether some people actually have brains to think about more useful and fulfilling things like the meaning of life, or stuff like that. Thats not to say that I spend all my time thinking about (emo-sounding) things like social problems and so on, but please, think about them once in a while!
Anyway, promos are coming in less than 2 weeks! Exciting ehh? Sigh, actually I really havn't been catching up on my work and all, so yeah, you could say i'm somewhat screwed x[. But anyway, there's waaay more to life than grades and work right? And anyway, this is just one teeny tiny portion of my life, and just comparing this time to a fraction of eternity, this is really nothing.
Hmm, someone said that I think too much. But then again, not thinking can make a person lose his "inner self", or so I believe. Think it's always a good thing to take some time to reflect on things that people say or do in your life, and try to learn from them! I admit that somehow the start of this year, my brain was really turned off or something, and I stopped thinking about such kind of stuff in my life. Then I realised that although I was "happy", I was actually caught up with the busyness of life and stopped thinking about things like how people are changing, or like some imperfections about myself that I could work to solve, or at least improve.
Maybe it was the new school setting, then people would not want to offend others by pointint out their flaws, but somehow I think that itself is one of the major flaws in Singapore's culture and education system. It's like how we don't really dare to speak up in public, for fear of "losing face" or like afraid to "hurt people". But in place of that, we thus lose a lot of exchanging of ideas, and lack of good communication skills and other problems appear, which is ultimately not benifical to society, right?
But think maybe the whole scene in Singapore is changing, with more people starting so speak up and speak out about their own ideals and beliefs, which is a good thing. However, the change seems to crawl along really slowly.
Oh well, but in the end, what really matters? I guess it's really up to the individual to figure out, like what is more important in their life lor. The material possesions that everyone aims to have, or the intangibles that are so abstract that one can only clutch at it, hoping that something has been grasp...
Anyway, promos are coming in less than 2 weeks! Exciting ehh? Sigh, actually I really havn't been catching up on my work and all, so yeah, you could say i'm somewhat screwed x[. But anyway, there's waaay more to life than grades and work right? And anyway, this is just one teeny tiny portion of my life, and just comparing this time to a fraction of eternity, this is really nothing.
Hmm, someone said that I think too much. But then again, not thinking can make a person lose his "inner self", or so I believe. Think it's always a good thing to take some time to reflect on things that people say or do in your life, and try to learn from them! I admit that somehow the start of this year, my brain was really turned off or something, and I stopped thinking about such kind of stuff in my life. Then I realised that although I was "happy", I was actually caught up with the busyness of life and stopped thinking about things like how people are changing, or like some imperfections about myself that I could work to solve, or at least improve.
Maybe it was the new school setting, then people would not want to offend others by pointint out their flaws, but somehow I think that itself is one of the major flaws in Singapore's culture and education system. It's like how we don't really dare to speak up in public, for fear of "losing face" or like afraid to "hurt people". But in place of that, we thus lose a lot of exchanging of ideas, and lack of good communication skills and other problems appear, which is ultimately not benifical to society, right?
But think maybe the whole scene in Singapore is changing, with more people starting so speak up and speak out about their own ideals and beliefs, which is a good thing. However, the change seems to crawl along really slowly.
Oh well, but in the end, what really matters? I guess it's really up to the individual to figure out, like what is more important in their life lor. The material possesions that everyone aims to have, or the intangibles that are so abstract that one can only clutch at it, hoping that something has been grasp...
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Life update II
Sigh, promos are coming! And what AM I doing? zzZ.
RAWR didn't wanna make my blog into some emo rant place where I talk about all the crap and stuff in my life, but sigh, once in a while is fine right?
Anyways, sometimes I just piss myself off immensly. Its like, how I always do the things that I should not do, and not do the things that I do. And its infuriating how sometimes the heart is so separate from the mind, and sometimes you just want one side to shut up, but obviously fate is cruel, and life unfair, so the result is kinda predictable, and you fall into like, some spiral of doom or something. And you end up hating yourself for that.
And yeah, yeah. Sometimes you just know a lot of things, but somehow you really can't apply them. It's like, you know what's right, and what's wrong, but somehow the flesh is weak, and end up doing all the wrong things. For the wrong reasons. And after that, you become super regretful, and almost swear never to do it again. Yet somehow it creeps up slowly, and like engulfs you whole. And you end up hating yourself for that.
And other times, you do know that He's always there for you, but it's like, you're half blind or something, and really just can't see Him. And it kinda stretchs your Faith a lot. Like A LOT. And people stumble, people fall, but who'll be there to pick them up? Hopefully friends will be around, to provide support, to help when you fall. But again, I suppose sometimes you really do walk alone? Well, as in not exactly alone, cuz He's there, but like, alone as in physically alone...which makes some people kinda lonely. And those kind of feelings aren't very good to habour. For too long, that is. It's kinda like, an infected wound, when left too long will fester, and like, kill the whole body...
Oh well, pray the doctor will come and help me soon....
RAWR didn't wanna make my blog into some emo rant place where I talk about all the crap and stuff in my life, but sigh, once in a while is fine right?
Anyways, sometimes I just piss myself off immensly. Its like, how I always do the things that I should not do, and not do the things that I do. And its infuriating how sometimes the heart is so separate from the mind, and sometimes you just want one side to shut up, but obviously fate is cruel, and life unfair, so the result is kinda predictable, and you fall into like, some spiral of doom or something. And you end up hating yourself for that.
And yeah, yeah. Sometimes you just know a lot of things, but somehow you really can't apply them. It's like, you know what's right, and what's wrong, but somehow the flesh is weak, and end up doing all the wrong things. For the wrong reasons. And after that, you become super regretful, and almost swear never to do it again. Yet somehow it creeps up slowly, and like engulfs you whole. And you end up hating yourself for that.
And other times, you do know that He's always there for you, but it's like, you're half blind or something, and really just can't see Him. And it kinda stretchs your Faith a lot. Like A LOT. And people stumble, people fall, but who'll be there to pick them up? Hopefully friends will be around, to provide support, to help when you fall. But again, I suppose sometimes you really do walk alone? Well, as in not exactly alone, cuz He's there, but like, alone as in physically alone...which makes some people kinda lonely. And those kind of feelings aren't very good to habour. For too long, that is. It's kinda like, an infected wound, when left too long will fester, and like, kill the whole body...
Oh well, pray the doctor will come and help me soon....
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Life update
Hey!
Haha, my EOM went not bad I think. Kinda proud of the work I did! (Which is kinda rare haha, cuz usually I end up screwing up everything I do =.=)
Anyway, lately we all have been really really busy and stuff haha, and luckily my emotions have been giving me a break (I.e. I don't feel emo or sad or angry or whatever haha). So kinda happy lor. But suppose I'm starting to feel the stress already...its like, I don't FEEL like working, but no choice, cuz of the stupid promos, which is like a nightmare. Plus WR is due on 2nd week of term 4, which is INSANE! As though we don't have enough to do...
Think I'll screw up quite a lot leh, havn't really had time to revise a lot...especially the semester 1 work. At least semester 2 work I had like, actively tried to catch up, so its way better lor, but I wish I could say the same for sem 1 work ><.
So then, kinda taking a break now from studying (heh, it's obvious, ain't it? If not I wouldn't even be here blogging x]). Trying some motivation system by allowing myself to watch 8 Simple Rules on YouTube after doing a certain amount of work. Haha, I love those vids man! Haha, maybe I kinda can relate to them? Heh.
Yeah, so anyway, times about up, time to get back to mugging! Seeya soon!
Haha, my EOM went not bad I think. Kinda proud of the work I did! (Which is kinda rare haha, cuz usually I end up screwing up everything I do =.=)
Anyway, lately we all have been really really busy and stuff haha, and luckily my emotions have been giving me a break (I.e. I don't feel emo or sad or angry or whatever haha). So kinda happy lor. But suppose I'm starting to feel the stress already...its like, I don't FEEL like working, but no choice, cuz of the stupid promos, which is like a nightmare. Plus WR is due on 2nd week of term 4, which is INSANE! As though we don't have enough to do...
Think I'll screw up quite a lot leh, havn't really had time to revise a lot...especially the semester 1 work. At least semester 2 work I had like, actively tried to catch up, so its way better lor, but I wish I could say the same for sem 1 work ><.
So then, kinda taking a break now from studying (heh, it's obvious, ain't it? If not I wouldn't even be here blogging x]). Trying some motivation system by allowing myself to watch 8 Simple Rules on YouTube after doing a certain amount of work. Haha, I love those vids man! Haha, maybe I kinda can relate to them? Heh.
Yeah, so anyway, times about up, time to get back to mugging! Seeya soon!
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