Random Thoughts V

RAWR!

Haha, I meant to post like before this, but lotsa stuff came up! Like wanted to post this 2 nights before, but like I was choinging math, and that day I was super tired le (and next day had Chorale!) so gave up and went to sleep.

Anyways, the picnic yest was SUPER FUN! And yay, think I'm slowly starting to warm up to Chorale people lol. Yeah yeah, I still take 1 year to get used to new people, but hey, it's an improvement ya? Haha, so the people who I know are trying to secretly stalk my blog, you know what to do! xD

Yeaps. School is starting. What to do? Dun like, dun want, also must go right? Anyways, I think for now I still haavn't broken my resolutions yet! (which is amazing. it's a record!) But hope I'll continue and pwn A lvls and everything! YEAH!

But still, life has its downs and annoyances, and yeah, they never fail to try and steal your energy, sucking it all up like a delicious bowl of mee. So how do we combat against this energy thief? (Since energy cannot be gained or lost, only stolen!) I guess one of the ways I've found quite useful, is to RANT it all out to someone who listens (or pretends to listen). Or cry it out. Or not. But still, it's good to find your own personal way to steal all the energy back, and you'll be Refreshed! Renewed! Rejuvenated! and ready to take on everything! (Or at least the next minute, before you start freaking out again xD).

But yeah, hope everyone will continue to work hard this year, and JIAYOU FOR EVERYTHING! YAY!

New year's resolutions

Lol, so it would seem that some loyal members have continued to visit my blog even after my super long hiatus! Freeeaaaky. Anyways, I'm posting this 10 mins before New Year! (as of now). And I guess as people start making their new year resolutions, I should too!

1) I resolve to mug/study/slackless/usemytimemorewisely/domorework in the coming year! Well, duh, seeing that it's A lvl year, I'll be insane if I don't do that.
2) I resolve to talk to more people I don't know/talk more to people I know. (Well, it kinda happens every year naturally, but I guess I want it to be a more concious effort? Wait, it actually already is for a few years now, oh well, still counts, doesn't it?)
3) I resolve to be a better (temp) SL (if I'm chosen lah, since dunno why Mr Toh takes so long to decide/announce! zzZ)
4) I resolve to do BETTER in school! (Like get dean's list, but yeah right like real i'll get)
5) I resolve to get at least a SILVER in napfa next year. Well, at least so that I dun need to go to hell early. xD
6) I resolve to exercise more! (Its needed for no.5)
7) I resolve to practice piano more. (At least to pass dip lor, but aiya ionno, sometimes it's like, I lose steam, then no more motivation to practice)
8) I resolve to love my class+chorale more more more! (And of course talk to ppl more lah!)
9) I resolve to break all my new year resolutions! (Since most are kinda impossible anyway, and takes too much effort to maintain, and breaks are needed, right?)

Yeah, so for all the ppl who are expectantly waiting for my post, here it is xD. BTW HAPPY NEW YEAR! 12pm xDDD

Random Thoughts III

Heh, havn't been updating this really regularly x]. But then again, no loyal readers who still check my blog! yay!

Anyways, exams are here! And obviously I havn't been doing well Dx. Oh wells, what to expect? Will (try to) work harder from now on though! (YEAH!)

Haha, one thing I kinda learnt about life is that sometimes it's really up to us to make our lives more meaningful? I mean like it's only if we actively try to spice up our lives then we can make it more enjoyable and stuff right? There's always people complaining how "life sucks" or "life's so boring", but are they doing anything to make it interesting themselves?

So then, was thinking how bout I start trying to write something new that I learnt/did for every single day for the next 1 month? Haha, see if I can keep it up x].

So then, one thing that I have learnt today is how after a certain number of hours of doing work requiring super high mental ability, any more time spent is kinda wasted until the mind gets a rest. (I.e. total of 2 hrs 40 mins for econs, followed by another 3 hrs of chinese can KILL a person. Or at least make him wanna gourge out his eyes and chop off his arm >.<).

Till tomorrow!

Life update II

Sigh, promos are coming! And what AM I doing? zzZ.

RAWR didn't wanna make my blog into some emo rant place where I talk about all the crap and stuff in my life, but sigh, once in a while is fine right?

Anyways, sometimes I just piss myself off immensly. Its like, how I always do the things that I should not do, and not do the things that I do. And its infuriating how sometimes the heart is so separate from the mind, and sometimes you just want one side to shut up, but obviously fate is cruel, and life unfair, so the result is kinda predictable, and you fall into like, some spiral of doom or something. And you end up hating yourself for that.

And yeah, yeah. Sometimes you just know a lot of things, but somehow you really can't apply them. It's like, you know what's right, and what's wrong, but somehow the flesh is weak, and end up doing all the wrong things. For the wrong reasons. And after that, you become super regretful, and almost swear never to do it again. Yet somehow it creeps up slowly, and like engulfs you whole. And you end up hating yourself for that.

And other times, you do know that He's always there for you, but it's like, you're half blind or something, and really just can't see Him. And it kinda stretchs your Faith a lot. Like A LOT. And people stumble, people fall, but who'll be there to pick them up? Hopefully friends will be around, to provide support, to help when you fall. But again, I suppose sometimes you really do walk alone? Well, as in not exactly alone, cuz He's there, but like, alone as in physically alone...which makes some people kinda lonely. And those kind of feelings aren't very good to habour. For too long, that is. It's kinda like, an infected wound, when left too long will fester, and like, kill the whole body...

Oh well, pray the doctor will come and help me soon....

Starting on a new clean slate x]

Haha, I figured that the old emo self was waaaay over. Obviously not meaning that I don't exactly have like times where I feel down and crappy and totally suicidal haha, but that aside, I figured that the past is unrepresentative of the present! I mean like, I suppose life's worth living more than we can ever imagine x]. 

Oh by the way, I just KNOW you're still thinking about the suicidal thing heh. But its not a problem haha, I mean.... well I suppose God has taken care of that x]. Like no way in this life am I gonna let Him down and give up and kill myself man! There's just no way! So shoo, stop thinking bout it! xD 

But yeah, why the sudden urge to blog, you might ask. Well, every new day brings a new thought and new feelings, new knowledge, new experiences. So I suppose the same goes for blogs? Haha, not making any sense xP. 

Hmm, but I suppose this is yet another attempt to make something that is both public, yet private, open, yet closed, thoughtful, yet free (which kinda doesn't really make sense anyway haha). So, who knows? Everything's worth a try yeah?

Anyway, ain't gonna publicize this heh. Since I suppose I don't want to attract people to read, just for the sake of attracting people to read. Anyway, heh I suppose my friends will find my blog sooner or later, and they can do the publicizing for me ehh? x] (yes that's right. YOU xD)

So then, with exams round the corner and people becoming crazy, I shall too return to slogging my way through what is known as EoM, aka evil reincarnate! And hopefully some good would come of it x]. 

And yes, you have a nice day too!